lesson learned. Tuesday, October 4, 2011 / 3:16 AM
Back to blog. today's topic lesson learned.
well no matter how hard you try to make someone your family.. no matter how well you treat them, have you asked yourself, are they treating you like their own family? no matter how helpful you are to them,have they actually cared and keep it in heart that you actually helped them before? As people said "you can't judge a book by its cover" well i totally agreed with that sentence.
first you can't judge a book just by its cover, you have to read through to know the real truth of that book.
second, by looking at the book you wouldn't know is the book nice or bad?? you have to take time to prove that.
same goes to looking at someone. well.. by looking at their face do you actually know how that people will be like, how would that person do something? will that person treat you as someone they really think is important? All you can do is put all your trust in that person and trust that he/she really can do a part as being a friend or even a bro/sis of yours. yeah that's what i did i put all.. IS ALL my trust into someone trusting that XOXO can give me the love as a family i never had. but.. what am i getting in return. nothing but scars in my heart, a deep and painful scar in my heart. I don't know what is the real reason i wish to find out, but there isn't any way i can find out. because u blocked all way of contacting you. Is ok. Is your freedom that you do anything. you have no one to asked permission to do these things. just take it as i am STUPID enough to actually believe in you. I can rise my hands up high and swear to GOD. i did nothing wrong. i don't think i did anything that hurts you. anything that make your life worst.. you said to me once
" don't be crazy i won't make used of you"
well this maybe doesn't seem to be using me to you,but to me it seems alot like using me.
when i see that you are one of my family i went telling people i have a very nice person treating me well so i am pretty much very happy with life. everyone envy me that i have someone so nice caring for me. i have people telling me your bro is so nice to you.. how i hope i have a bro like yours. but look what is happening now.. people asked why are you writing emotional post on facebook and twitter i just seems to be speechless. i just seems to be so helpless to say anything. because in my heart i still believe you wouldn't do this to me. because i treated you like my own bro.. this post seem like i am complaining. well look at all post before.. after this happen i struggle to move on with my life this 4days~ My tears drop when i think of everything. there is nothing i can do. Today i have think through and i stand on my feet and tell myself. i can't carry on like this.. i have better things to do in life then being sad here. so as someone told me
"just take this as a lesson learned"
yes this is a lesson learned not because you did this to me and the lesson learn is not i have meet a bad person
the lesson learned is i can only blame myself. blame myself for being softhearted blame myself for being stupid. i won blame you. like what i said i will treat you like my bro always. i must thank you for all this. because you made me stronger. and thank you for leaving a DEEP SCAR in my heart, this scar will be with me till the day i leave this world.
i will stay strong as long as i am living, i will stay strong as long as there are people loving me out there. i will stay strong because i know there are still people caring for me.
this post isn't blaming you i just need a way to let it out. you are not in fault so don worry.
and remember this" you will always and will always be my bro in my heart, so if one day you think you need me again i welcome you". till that day stay happy always and smile..
p/s: starting from tomorrow, my days will start afresh.
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