~love~ Saturday, September 17, 2011 / 6:20 AM
LOVE~ is something everyone needs~ you don't need say you dun need any love that is totally bull shit~ i am a kid that no one would love,since i was young i was not love by my dad. my dad is a really crazy guy when i was about 4years old my mum works to support the family. me and my dad. every one else have a loving dad. but mine?. i was beaten almost everyday and was chased out of the house to sleep on the road during mid night where everyone is sound alseep. i was siting outside my house waiting for mummy to come back so that i could get into the house. when mummy get back home is already 3am in the morning~ other then that i was often bring to a shopping center thn left there alone~ and lucky enough i know the way home...you would say i may be telling stories~but this is all true~ thn this continue till i was 5years old~ my mum decided to leave my dad with me~ thn we left for few months my dad meet with an accident he bang his motor onto a bull and pass away~ from there i was send to singapore to study~ till now~ everyday in singapore was misery. i was missing my mum real badly everyday meet many problem in school all i can do is bear with it~ i told myself this will be over real soon. primary school was fun and childish year. secondary school was a real experience year for me. the five years in secondary school makes me notices who are my real friends and who are not~ i have been backstab i was being betrayed my "friendS" i was being said that i was a bad friend. i was say to be a bad person in every one's eyes~ pain in the heart is actually a everyday thing. tears flowing down my eyes is a everyday thing too~ till sec 5 my family has some family problems so i decided to quit school. but no one understand they thought i just don't wan to study. i wish to have O level cert like you guys. but who understand that my family needs me~ only some of them~ thn i starting working in malaysia. i found out that malaysia was a hard place to live in but i got no choice i have to bear with it again. because i believe that one day i can lead my happy life like everyone else having groups of friends that cared and love me~ few months back i start playing ddtank a game that i meet lots of friends but no one is truely to be friends. they will want you to give benefits to them in game. so i thought i couldn't be here long. after all is just a game~ thn one day someone said this to me " everyone started being noob, everyone failed in doing everything, no one when the day when they are born they already know how to walk" this words althought is common sense but it touches me real deeply. that is when i know there are actually nice people out there.. so i decided to play this game~ the more i play the more friends i get and now i have group of friends that we helped each other in everything now we have become powerful. but when everyone got powerful they will get another group of friends and i was slowly unnoticed. thn i felt so lonely that everyone just didn't wan to help me. everyone gets my help and disappear~ be good guy that is what all i get in the end. until two days ago i was playing this game with one of my friend and this guy was invited in to our room at first thought he is so powerful he must be very "action" means very bossy but guess what after knowing he was elder thn me~ i thought that i can get to know more friends since he was from singapore~he i starting treating him like my big brother. he treats me like a younger brother. i was pestering him everyday he didn't mind he didn't even think that i was very annoying he showed me he cared for me at that moment i was so touch deeply. i felt i meet the right person i felt i did the right thing playing this game~ this game bought us together ~
TO:KORkor~ this may be abit GAY! but i still going to say it. The day we know each other i felt the brother love you had for me~ ermmm as in i know you really cared about me. i thought you was just messing around~ or even trying to entertain me. but i asked for your phone number you gave straight away. from that i know you really wanted me as your brother. from young i always wanted a elder brother like you. a brother that will care will help me in every way. you gave me the care i always wanted~ you gave me the love no one ever gave to me except my mum but i wanted a brother ever since i was young i wanted a brother i can share all my worries and happiness with. i CAN SAY i FOUND IT! finally althought we are not blood brothers but i thought we can be like blood brothers right? that what i think larh i dunno how you would think but i really want to thank you for the cared this few days when i was really down when i was lock in the darkness where no one dares to come into and save me. you are the one that came in like a hero to save me from darkness pull me back when i was suppose to go~ the time where i was chatting with you i think i am so blessed to have a big brother like you~ waiting for your whats app became my everyday thing~ thank you so much for trusting in me too. thank you for everything. i love you(as a brother) muacks~your precious didi : jeff
i finally let everything of my past and now out of my chest~ i have never told anyone about my childhood~ because i am scared that no ones wants to be friend with me~ but now i am not scared at all because i believe my bro is not going to disown me because of this. i have faith in this~ thanks about bro!
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